Sunday, May 19, 2019

No act of kindness, no matter how small, is ever wasted

Not quite sure what you mean by conceptual, it is question of idea, rather than technique.
An economy that bases prices in scarcity will have a perverse incentive to deplete any resource. This is how capitalism functions. It is not only economically sound, but economically profitable to generate crisis. For example, look at the crops that get burned due to over-abundance, look at how diamonds are price gouged, look at how clothing is liquidated because of overstocking. It is disgusting. We destroy our excess in order to make profit. Not donate, destroy. The compassionate route is blocked off by greed. We have enough housing, clothing, and food to keep our entire society off the streets and fed, yet because we worship the dollar over morality, we prefer to allow and encourage suffering.
The overall theme of my works is alienation. And in my recent works it is with particular focus on loss of or confusion about identity. In mine eyes the world we live in is extremely turbulent and fragmented - we are constantly exposed to disturbances and information that we need to relate to. My works are a reaction to this, as I here seek to capture and question the psychological, emotional and existential consequences of societal development.
There’s no rhyme or reason to what makes a great photo. Most of the time it is pure chance and a quick shutter finger, but other times it is planning, ingenuity and sometimes even stalking.
I have always photographed loneliness because that is my life.
As long as I am nothing but a ghost of the civil dead, I can do nothing.
I had nothing to offer anybody, except my own confusion.
Just imagine living in a world without mirrors. You’d dream about your face and imagine it as an outer reflection of what is inside you. And then, when you reached forty, someone put a mirror before you for the first time in your life. Imagine your fright! You’d see the face of a stranger. And you’d know quite clearly what you are unable to grasp: your face is not you.
You are so brave and quiet I forget you are suffering.
I had an artist’s instincts….You can see the picture before it’s taken; then it’s up to you to get the camera to see.
A good snapshot stops a moment from running away.
The immature artist imitates; the mature artist steals.
Though her wild heart bathes the universe in red, no spark kindles in the space between her arms; for all of her pouring prayers she doesn’t feel the faintest tremor of an answer in the darkness against her. Her sense of the third person with them widens enormously, and she knows, knows, while knocks sound at the door, that the worst thing that has ever happened to any woman in the world has happened to her.


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Monday, April 15, 2019

Lightly

it’s dark because you are trying too hard 
lightly child, lightly  learn to do everything lightly 
i was so preposterously serious in those days
that’s why you must walk so lightly 

lightly my darling
eventually everything connects
don’t use all-or-nothing thinking 
love is a burning thing--phosphorescent

when the orbits of these two satellites of ours happened to cross paths, we could be together 
how did i fall so hard again
in the next instant we’d be in absolute solitude 
until we burned up and became nothing

Sunday, April 14, 2019

Untitled, age 31

fear the people i love die when i’m not around.
lost my brother at age 12
learned about it in the car ride from school
didn’t think death was “real” but now it’s my obsession

i think if i’m around the people i love they won’t die
my need for control creates so much anxiety
i’m incredibly fearful my fiancé, my q, will die
he’s “cheated” death so many times yet one time will be the last

rape
my mother is a survivor, her own home, violent
my own sudden death
fear freak accident, medical rarity

failure, career hasn’t gotten off the ground
relationship, starting a family
i’ve been unable to get pregnant
really hard not to let fear control me

have a full time job, went back to school and got my masters
love to go for walks with my dogs
enjoy museums and movies and things that are outside
fear being a shut in

just have to go outside on my days off
makes having fun feel less like a chore
relieves stress
sometimes

Saturday, April 13, 2019

Untitled

look closely, the beautiful may be small.
i had lost my mind and fallen into my heart
but can’t remember what came after that
the mouth & all other things sharp

my idea of an interesting person is someone who is quite proud
to practice if you’re feeling stress frustration loneliness sadness tiredness
in a dream you saw a way to survive
it’s our pleasure to disgust you

not having time for a person
being the same as rejecting them
here’s something evil in me
but not loneliness

forgive yourself for not knowing
every single person knows something you don’t
there is a primal reassurance in knowing someone else
i destroy and keep

Tuesday, March 12, 2019

Age

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Sunday, January 13, 2019

Hustlers

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Friday, December 28, 2018

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Monday, December 24, 2018

What the Hell Are 'Female-Presenting Nipples?' II

Any test that turns on what is offensive to the community's standards is too loose, too capricious, too destructive of freedom of expression to be squared with the First Amendment. Under that test, juries can censor, suppress, and punish what they don’t like, provided the matter relates to "sexual impurity" or has a tendency "to excite lustful thoughts". This is community censorship in one of its worst forms. It creates a regime where in the battle between the literati and the Philistines, the Philistines are certain to win…
 

The legality of a publication in this country should never be allowed to turn either on the purity of thought which it instills in the mind of the reader or on the degree to which it offends the community conscience. By either test the role of the censor is exalted, and society's values in literary freedom are sacrificed…
 

I would give the broad sweep of the First Amendment full support. I have the same confidence in the ability of our people to reject noxious literature as I have in their capacity to sort out the true from the false in theology, economics, politics, or any other field.

—William O Douglas, Dissent, Roth v. United States, June 24, 1957

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Sunday, December 23, 2018

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Sunday, December 16, 2018

Tree


How much carbon is released into the air in the Camp Fire that burned down Paradise?

Born from you
rocked in you
held by you much
of the time

Sheltered by you
written on by you

crashed into you
 ➹❤ on you
peed on you

dreamt of you
and many of you

breathe all of you

nurture you
best I can

I look up and
see how tall you
are

how green

A growing tree
for itself
its place
soil     moisture

life
a     tree beyond its lifespan
everlasting
    barring bugs
    rot     mold
rough     finished

6" long, 1/2"⌀
Monterey Pine
smooth in places
powerful split
gray green
as if lichens growing
decay underneath
as if insects
that felled the tree in wet wind

this little twig got the radiator and the ac condenser
on the grade up to Stage Road in the tail end of the
Thanksgiving storm, Highway 1 NB

Sunday, November 18, 2018

Fascist, no nationalist

so there one is
plain as day
a monster to slay
a pimple to burst
a nit or louse
to comb out
depending

peace, they call

yeah right
i'll give you a piece
she says

bu
not even close

where did it go,
peace
we just had it

and now we can't find it
kyrie eleison
Κύριε, ἐλέησον
cri du coeur

unmoved
nativism